White Flower

VeLLai PookaL ulagam engum malarhavae
vidiyum Bhoomi amaidhikaaga vidihavae
manmel manjal veluchcham vizhuhavae
malarae sombal muRiththu ezhuhavae
kuzhanthai vizhikattumae
Thaayin katha kathappil
ulagam vidiyattumae piLLayin sirumugha siRippil
(VeLLai)
kaatrin perisaiyil mazhai paadum paadangalum oru maunam poal inbam tarumooOO
koadi keertanamum kavi koartha vaarthaiygalum thuLi kaNNer poal arththam tharumo (VeLLai)
yengusiru kuzhanthai than kaigal neetidumo angu thondrayo koLLai nilavae enghu manidha Inam poar oyinthu sayinthidumo angu koovadho veLLai kuyilae (VeLLai)

psycho gal

Few days ago someone told me that i look very matured that if i put on some weight i might look like a mother for a kid!!

Imagine my shock!

That person might as well as plunged a knife into my heart.

The pain would have been lesser.

Moving on.....

I don't know why,but I'm feeling sad these past 2 days....WITHOUT a reason...

My heart is feeling heavy but i cant seem to figure out the reason why.

Even when someone called me that day,I was sobbing for no reason, at the same time pretend like I'm just fine and control my breathing so the person wont notice me bawling....

What is happening to me?

Mid term next week...

Hope can do well...

Kindness is in our power,even when fondness is not!

halo people..
long time did not blog

computer in my house having problems.

I'm back in campus for semester 2!

life is OK i guess..

i came across this poem during my psychotherapy lecture class

really luv this poem.....check it out..

Gestalt Prayer:

I do my thing and you do your thing

I am not in this world to live up to your expectations

And you are not in this world to live up to mine

You are you and I am I,

And by chance we find each other it's beautiful,

If not,it cannot be helped (perls,1969)

Nice..........

*sobs*

God...I feel like hitting my head on the brick wall.
i messed up in Statistic Final Exam!

really sad....

when la exam going to finish,,,

cant wait to go home n prepare for Deepavali...wohoooo

TiMe FliES

Now that i have settled the PTPTN stuff.
my next headache is FINAL EXAMINATION!!Time flies.

Hope can do well.

I got the chance to watch Kandaswamy a week ago.The movie was just OK for me,but
I am totaly in awe of shriya's body...so hawtt..even if i starve for a year also cant get a figure like that!*sighs*

Stupid or fool?

The PTPTN loan stuffs is making my head ache,,arrghhhhhhh.....
Hope can settle it soon...
.........................
I know I'm doing a mistake...i that know I'm letting the person cheat me
but then why am i letting it happen to me?am i stupid or a fool....

More PictuRes

A while ago,i got the opportunity to attend my friend's bday bash at The Grand Kampar Hotel.It was really awesome,especially the view from the top of the hotel.The day was very windy went i went there,the sensation of wind blowing against my cheek and my hair was so nice.Hope to go there again someday! :-)

HAppY

Yippie..im going home today!

Dream

Yesterday i had a weirdest dream.I had dream of being in a photo shoot for a cover page with Lady Gaga.I'm not even a fan of her....but the dream sure is weird!hahaha...

A New Begining

Halo people,cant even remember t last time i blogged.life is getting so hectic nowadays!the latest updates in my life..I'm currently pursuing my degree in psychology at UTAR..sounds surreal even to me.of coz changes is never easy.But i f come a long way ever since.what i f learned?things dun always turns out t way u wan it to be..but I'm fine.i noe i will b fine..no matter what coz what that doesn't kill you make you stronger rytez..Today was my first formal presentation for research method assignment..it went well i guess,but the real fun part was wearing t formal clothes,hahaha..most of my fren hate it,but not me.i love formal outfit both on males an females.Guys look totally smashing!girls do not loose out either..i Will post more pictures on my next blog..My resolution:Blog more often! til then.ciaoz people!!

TaGGeD By Mizz MuHee

1. Besides your lips, where is the favorite spot to get kissed?
my cheeks

2. How did you feel when you woke up this morning?
not gud

3. Who was the last person/people you took a photo with?
should be with ranji n muhi

4. Would you considered yourself spoiled?
YES!!

5. Will you ever donate blood?
sure..have done it few times nw

6. Have you ever had a best friend who was of the opposite sex?
NOp....

7. Do you want someone to be dead?
Most definetly not!

8. What does your last text message say?
Miss u......

9. What are you thinking right now?
about this questionaire,what else!

10. Do you want someone to be with you right now?
Yess!!the loneliness is killing me

11. What was the time you went to bed last night?
around 1.30 i thk

12. Where did you buy the tee you are wearing now?
from the morning market in segambut...

13. Is someone on your mind right now?
not sumone..but many!

14. Who was the last person to text you?
Mr.K

TEN lucky People of my choice...
1.Ranji
2.Muhi
3.Loges
4.Nisha
5.Maria
6.Yoges ka
7.Mirul
8.Renu ka
9.Aditya
10.-

15. Who is no. 2 having relationship with?
she 'claims' to be single...

16. Is no. 3 a male or a female?
Female..

17. If no. 1 and no.7 get together, would it be good?
OMG..Lolz,,wht a quirky pair

18. What is no.1 studying about?
She's studying every damn thing to score in SPM!

19. When was the last time you chatted with them?Not sure..

20. Is no. 4 single?
as far as i noe...yes

21. Say something about no. 2.
she is a lot of fun.....sweet gal wft a dry sense of humor.....gud listener but neva advises!

22. What do you think of no. 3 and no.6 being together?
umm..not likely...

23. Describe no.9
adorable!

24. What will you do if no. 6 and no.7 fight?
stop them of course..we PR's have to stick together no matter wht!hahaha

25. Do you like no. 8?
most definetly,,she's my sis..

A Day To Remember!

Last Tuesday(26.05.09) could be best described as a unexpected day for me.of coz i was told by my sis that we are going to take family pictures at a studio in town.Waking up,i was damn pissed to see a huge,larger than life zits on my face!!I mean why today of all days

With a heavy heart i dragged myself from bed to get dressed.i choose a maroon Saree for the occasion..not that it's my favourite o wat! my favourite saris are the one in black n white.but my mom insisted that i wear the maroon one to 'add color' for our pics..hahaThe place was gud!they did our makeups and hairdo...and what i have discovered bout myself is that i like my face better without makeup! i always wanted to wear those white wedding gowns!!but never thought that I'll get the chance!hahaha..the biggest shock for me?seeing my mother in a tube dress n makeups!!my jaw was hanging open when i saw my mothers transformation!!i thought she looked like Jaya Bachan!Amma,u Rocks!!!

Definitely a day to remember!

TaGGed

Layer 1: On The Outside
Name: Rubini
Date Of Birth: 04/10/1989
Current status:Its Complicated??lolzz
Eye Colour: Dark Brown
Righty or lefty: Righty

Layer 2:
On The InsideMy Heritage: Tamilian
My Fears: death of loved ones,n those gross centipedes,,eeewwwww
My Weaknesses: Overlysensitive,easily depressed
My Perfect Pizza: Everythg is fine with me, given no beef!!

Layer 3: Yesterday, Today, Tomorrow
My thoughts first waking up: Im late!!need to wash my hair *Groans*
My bedtime: 12am-2am
My most missed memory:MY life for the last 4 mnths n days spent in ACS of cozzz!

Layer 4: My Pick
Pepsi or Coke:Neither
McDonald's or Burger King: McDonald's
Single or Grouped Dates: Single dates
Adidas Or Nike:Neither
NikeTea or Nestea:Neither
Chocolate or Vanila: Chocolate
cappucino or Coffee: Coffee

Layer 5:
Do YouSmoke:yucksss!!!so nowayss
Curse:Almost never but maybe whn i am totally pissed whc is seldom!!
Take a Shower: umm..of cozz lar
Have a crush:NOP
Think You've Been In Love: yup.....
Go to School:Im not going to set my foot in sch again!!i pretty much hated my schooling life from std 1-F5....oni f6 was fun for me !!but i've had enuff of sch uniforms,morning assemblys n the dreaded mondays!!
Want to get married: Of courseee.....
Believe in Yourself:50%

Layer 6: In the Past
Alcohol: yeahh bt only in special occasions
Been On Stage: Yeah
Eaten Sushi: Nope
Dyed your hair:many2 times

Layer 7:
Have you ever
Played A Stripping Game: Ermm..nop
Changed who you were to fit in: yess!!!n proud of it

Layer 8: Age you are hoping...
To be married: 25-28

Layer 9: In a Guy
Best Eye Colour:Brown
BestHair Colour: Black
Short Hair or Long Hair: long bt neat!
Best Height: dun care as long taller than me
Attitude:caring,understanding,patient,sweet,loving,sincere n thruthfull

Layer 10: What Were You Doing..

A Minute Ago:staring at my computer screen
An Hour Ago: eating vegetarian home cooked meal!nyummyyy
4-5 Hours Ago: ZZZZZZZ
1 Month Ago:having the best times of my life(working)
Year Ago: Learning to find joy in sorrow(f6)

Layer 11: Finish the Sentences

I love: my family n frenzzz,,the one who's alwayss der for me,no matter wat!!
I feel:u dull ache in my heart whc indicates tht i miss sumone soo mchh!!
I hate: Rude people who dun give a damn bout other people's feeling!
I hide:Sumthg tht i need to hide!
I miss:Everytg tht i had in my life around a week ago
I need:lotsaa hugs n kisses
I want: to b successful..

Layer 12: Anyone who ever reads this.

Loving My Life As It Is

Each time i read sum1 blog,i always thk tht i should blog more often..but thn again i dun do tht...!!!probably bcoz of the fact tht i hate it whn sum1 question wht i f written n critic me coz of tht!!how soo totaly dreadfull......watevaa...
On a much brighter note..i went to school play the othr day n i was soo overcomed with emotion whle seeing my sch building whc stood regal n beautifull againts the black colored backdrop,enhanced by all those spot lights!! Awsome indeed..i jez miss my school so mch..those funfilled day,laughing out loud wift frenzz...despite of how bad thgs turned up,trust me..i dont f any regrets over t path tht i have previously choosen n failed....
No regrets....only Lessons!!
Sitting inside the auditorium made me thkk so much.....bth pleasent n unpleasent note.....i was thinking bout events tht occured just a year bak...hw childlike i was..the lesson tht sum issues taught me...bittersweet memories tht i had in ACS...Gr8 frenzz tht i made.....
It also made my thk of my frenz tht i have right nw...when nisha n loges came to my hse the othr day afta lepaking at ipoh parade.....i felt like i dont want thm to leave me....i wished we wont have to part ways..i mean nisha is leavg to Kl ths Sunday!!!though a part of me is happy tht she is going to live her dreamz for better future anotha part of me dont want her to go......feelg soo sad tht she wnt be a big part of my life nymore like she used to be.......
I guess tht ths is life......v to take diff paths to suceed......i noe tht im being immature bt i guess ths phase f to pass........i thk ths year is all bout leavg the frezz tht means so much to me......
I f neva blogged nythg bout my working life.....honetly,,i just lurve it!! im working as a Public Relation Coordinator in The store.My wrk is fun..i mean it is nt hard as my sis wrk is...i can relax n chitchat wft my colleagues freely as i wan.....basicaly,my jod requires me to answer phonecalls,do paging,entertain customers who claim free gifts, do wrapping services n open letters tht are adressed to The Store........wht make my lurve my job so mch is t fact tht the time tht i get to spend with my funloving colleagues.....thy make my laugh soo much!!!!n the thoughts of leaving it all is noo fun at all..since amma is askg me to stop wrk since to help wft akka's wedding ceremony. Sad.Sad.Com.....
n oso Wishing al indians Happy New Year!!a toast for Gr8 frenship!!! GOD BLESS ME!

3 of Me

THREE NAMES THAT FRIENDS YOU CALL:
1)Rubi
2)Rubini
3)-

THREE MOST IMPORTANT DATES IN YOUR LIFE:
1) 4th Oct
2)14th Feb
3)1st Jan

THREE THINGS YOUVE DONE IN THE LAST 30 MINUTES:
1)shower
2)watch t.v
3)stuff my face.. hehehe

THREE WAYS TO BE HAPPY:
1)being wft my fly n relatives
2)chiling out wift frenzz
3)curling up on the bed wft a gud book to read

THREE PERSONS YOU MISS :
1)Nisha
2)Loges
3)Maria

THREE GIFTS YOU WOULD LIKE TO RECEIVE:
1)White Gold
2)Teddy bear
3)Ferero Rocher


THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
1)Reading novels
2)Listening to songs
3)Shopping

THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO FOR VACATION:
1)Carribean
2)Hawaii
3)Miami

THREE FAVORITE DRINKS:
1)Coffee
2)Orange juice
3)Soya Bean

THREE THINGS FOUND IN YOUR BAG:
1)Wallet
2)HP
3)Lip Gloss

HOW DARE THEY

has been quite a whle since i last blogged!!!watt too doo.......ever since i f started wrkg,time fliessssss..........i was neva intended to blog tday till i read my sweet sis blog......
So,gal,,i decidate ths blog 2 u!!!....though u neva told me ur prob!!whc i do feel a little sad,,,,i feel compeled say sumthg.......

u noe..whn ranjy 1st told m,, i was seethg wft rage!!!feel lik marching over there n giv tht L and t othrs a veryyy tight slap n a piece of my mind!!!wat a very retarded joke..the person who cooked up ths prank obviously need to check his/her brain 4 fautly!!wat a totaly stupid,heartless n cruel joke.....

mark my word,,god is gonna make thm pay 4 wateva thy did to u!!BUT....i noe dat ur hurting rite nw...its very norm 2 feel wat ur feelg rite nm..but dun woory..i promise u dat time will heall all the pain sooner o later.....fuck em,,,,,,few mnths from nw ..thy all r nobodies in ur life..u dun need heartless peop lik dat in ur life..........

Be cool...dun thk of all dat too much....concentrate on othr important thg in ur lfe.....dun waste even an ounce of energy 4 those dogs......By all means forget about it....bt as ranjy sed,,,,,neva forgive!!!!!!okk........take care..v all love u verryyy much!!!!! u r far better than all of thm put 2gthr.............muaxxxxx......