Randomness

In my course of life,it's very rare that i met teachers who inspire me.
However,after entering UTAR,Kampar I had came across few lecturers that inspired me alot,those whom I truly respect,people who did 'touch' my life in someways..
One of this lecturer's are Mr.Tan,who teaches me Adolescent Psychology this semester.His way of conducting a class is so unique.Yes,it can be very stressful because we all have to be on our toes racking our brain to the answers to his questions that you hardly can find in books..but somehow he challenges us to do things differently,think differently.There are also times that I do not agree with his point of view,but then there is no one definite answers to a lot of questions in this world rite.
Yesterday,I left his class in silence,pondering upon the essence of what he said in my mind over and over again for such a long time.I was thinking bout my culture and how it shaped who i am now.Sorry to say this,but I do not have much faith in the ' goodness ' of my culture that shaped me.Of course,there are some positive aspect but mostly are negative stuff that i cannot accept,the one that I rebel against.
There is a belief that culture leads to the right part at the end.Its either make you or completely breaks you.It shaped your thinking,who you want to be,who you are now.In my case,I do not think that my culture actually will ' support ' what i am doing now or even what i am going to do.
My motivation in life right now is too seek answers to many questions that plagued my own life.why people do what they do? The other day my mother said something to me that made me think of my own humanity.maybe I am my natural tendency is to be a bad human being?If so why??Honestly I don't know whether i am going to be succeed or not.I belief that i will because its something that stems from my own desire,even if i fail,I'm going to fail happily knowing that at least i tried.well.but then am i too young to say that?,maybe one day i am going to regret my actions?well..i just have to wait and see...and i have my whole lifetime for that!